Sunday, September 26, 2010

Royal Tantrums

I am a stubborn child. This past week I have put on my tiara, stuck my nose in the air and stomped around the castle. High heals and skirts assist the drama of the tantrum. At least that is what I imagine in my royal position as His daughter. Thanks be to Him that He has patience that is unlimited because I was nothing shy of a cross between a teenager with an attitude, and a two year old.

I am sure you are wondering, why the tantrum? Or attitude? {well, I blush at the thought} I am mad. I am mad because I am tired of waiting. Waiting for what? Well, several things honestly. But I am tired of the rooting, disecting all the ugly stuff. I want the next phase and quite honestly I wouldn't mind if Prince Charming rode in on a white horse and took me off into the sunset. I know, all this about a boy? You through a royal fit over a man??? Uh, ya. I'm sure my single ladies can relate. I am over the reality that a boy won't solve my problems, but when God showed me that I look for my IDENTITY and IDOLIZE them I threw myself on my bed and kicked and screamed because this princess was in DENIAL. Yup. I said, "nope you have it wrong God".

Flash forward a day or two when I was still sulking and I saw it. I saw it in me. OH yes, my Daddy was right. That is when the teenage glare factor began. I was mad, mad, mad. I sat there and ignored Him. I said fine, be right and know everything, but I am not changing. Hahaha... that lasted ummm like a day. Why is he so gentle? Why is he so good at knowing just what my heart needs? I know, I don't even have to answer that question. But my Daddy sat this girl down and said, "Sweet daughter, I am jealous of these boys you look to, but most of all I am sad. You were not created to serve them."

How can a girl be mad at her Daddy who loves her? He wants me because He loves me. He promises to fill me and give me so much more than a man. I am tired of chasing the lie that a boy has the key to happiness, or fullness or whatever it is depending on the day. It is a lie. Instead I want to be intensional about dating my Prince of Peace and sweet King. He is what I really want.

Over and over in the bible God warns "You shall have no other Gods before me." Exodus 20:3. This is one that He drives home. I think so often we forget that an idol doesn't have to come in the form of something wooden or a statue. There are people that we put before Him, material position, jobs, ministry, appearances and keeping the law. In the New Testament God says "Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves a son or daughter more then me is not worthy of me." Matthew 10:37. I truly believe that God desires His relationship to be number one NO MATTER WHAT. And that our other relationships and ambitions can creep up and take His place.

My issue right now is well, boys. I like them. I would like one to like me. But, I have to be patient. I can't order that to happen. And God's timing is so perfect. But it is important that I learn now to keep my heart in check and that I don't let any relationship sit in the place of my King.

So this princess is going to keep her heart in His this week and be intensional. How? I will let you know :)

1 comment:

  1. You inspire me. Your honesty and depth of spiritual longing for your King is amazing. I'm proud to be your friend!